Like everyone knows that I fucking cut myself now.
I have so many issues.
Today hasn’t gone right at all.
And I’m so emotionally drained I can’t even cry about it.
It’s basically summer in New Mexico still so how tf do I wear a god damn sweater every fucking day.
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry I let it get this bad.
I’m so sorry that I ruined everything.
I’m sorry.
I’m scared that everyones going to get tired of my shit and leave,walk away.Just decide one day that I’m not worth caring about.
But the really scary part is …..I think its already starting to happen.
This is so upsetting,i won’t be able to see her for a week D:
I’m soo paranoid,I keep imagining her running away or something :\
Whats the point in falling asleep,I fall asleep at like 2 sooo misewell stay up the whole entire time.
I hate how I have no reason to get jealous.
Because it doesn’t make sense right?It doesn’t make sense for me to pine after you when I know I don’t stand a chance.It bugs me sooo much.
I am so sick and TIRED of liking you,like really,wow,feelings can you just fucking stop for once.
I want to just scream and go to sleep and never wake up.
I wasted a year on you.Probably more.And the reality just sunk in that you don’t care,you don’t want to talk to me any more.
I shouldn’t even miss you,I know,you lied so many times.but I do.and I will always miss you.
I really should hate you.If anything I hate myself for even getting involved with you in the first place..
Who cares if someone is black,asian,white,whatever.
They were born like that,and you have the nerve to bully them about something they can’t even control.Everyone is gorgeous,you reading this right now,you are so beautiful.
I just don’t get why people can’t keep their nasty comments to themselves..
